All That I Have Felt
(In some semblance of order)
(1967 to 1975)
kittens
carpet burns
fear
WGN presents “One-Eyed Jacks” starring Marlon Brando
my grandmother’s basement
slaps from my mother
fear
kicks from my father
fear
Nerf basketball
10CC “I'm Not in Love”
fear
(1976 to 1980)
sunny, cool, fall days
the woods on Sundays
tall green grass
raised red seams on a baseball
fear
Tickle Pink wine
the smell of hashish
the buzz of high tension wires
Stroh's beer, pull tab tall boys
the woods at night
the breeze through the car window
her breath in my ear
fear
(1981 to 1988)
“Footloose” starring Kevin Bacon
Michelob Light in bottles
extra spicy guacamole
fear
“Members Only” black jacket
para mutual wagering
fellatio
4 seam fastball
fear
the garlic taste of Dimethyl Sulfoxide (DMSO)
a 91 mph fastball
Feldene dissolved in Dimethyl Sulfoxide and applied to my skin via tongue depressor
my 93.5 mph fastball
The roar of the crowd
fear
October
the swirling light and sound of a west Texas freight train at night in the fog
Jesus Christ
Fear
(1989 to 1999)
the anticipation of child #1
the birth of child #2
6 hours of uninterrupted sleep after child #3
an 8mm obstructed kidney stone
fear
morphine
fear
Vicodin
fear
sunny, cool, fall days
“The Road Less Traveled” by M Scott Peck
hydrocodone
fear
the woods in fall
thunder
Valium
fear
the woods in winter
the rumble of Niagara Falls
Valium
fear
Oxycontin
shame
Valium
fear
“Ruthless Trust” by Brennan Manning
the woods in spring
The Stanley Cup
fear
(2000 to 2004)
detox
nostalgia of my youth
photos of my children as children
hydrocodone
detox
fear
Jose Cuervo silver tequila
sunny, cool, spring days
Major League Baseball opening day
Jose Cuervo Gold tequila
fear
Chinaco Reposado tequila
the stench of pavement
Gran Patron tequila
the heat of pavement
Herradura Anejo tequila
detox
hydrocodone
fear
Marca Negra Mezcal
detox
AA meetings
Oxycontin
fear
Alice in Chains “Down in a Hole”
detox
nostalgia for opiates
fear
(2005 to 2007)
AA meetings
Camel 99's
her infidelity
fear
photos of my children as children
Camel 99's
the sweet, sweet voice of Martin Sexton
AA meetings
shame
regret
fear
Suboxone
regret
shame
fear
(2008 to 2010)
the tenderness of your touch
a king size memory foam mattress
the tenderness of your touch
Amerique Verte Absinthe
fear
discussions with the dead
the tenderness of your touch
Ray Lamontagne “Winter Birds”
the tenderness of your touch
ablution by Amerique Verte Absinthe
fear
visions of the dead
fear
visits from the dead
(2011 to 2014)
their forgiveness
AA meetings
Camel 99's
my inability to sleep
fear
the tenderness of your touch
the tenderness of your touch
the tenderness of your touch
the tenderness of your touch
fear
Centenario Reposado tequila
regret
Tramadol in large amounts
regret
thoughts of you leaving me
thoughts of me being left alone
thoughts of you being left alone
regret
nothing
nothing
nothing
the words I have just written
darkness
fear
John Kross is an aspiring poet living and working in Dallas, TX. His poems have recently appeared in Napalm and Novocain, The Mind[less] Muse, Pyrokinection and the 2012 edition of Storm Cycle. You can read more of John's work and interact with him as the poet "V" at Hello Poetry. www.hellopoetry.com/v/
solid, worthy selection of poems . . .
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